About a few days ago, I found out that someone I deeply cared about lied to me. I'm used to being lied and being the stupid/blur sotong one among my friends, but this time, I couldn't shake off the feeling that I've been deeply betrayed.

Being lied to is not always an easy thing to accept but most of the time I could easily brush it off my shoulder because the fact is, I'm a reasonable person. I always give the other person the benefit of the doubt, knowing that someone won't just deliberately lie to hurt you. I have to admit that i do lie at times just to get away with things. We all do right. This time round,however, it's eating me up inside. my heart is torn into pieces literally. I feel so stupid and ARGHH!!!

I'm just glad that my family, the boyfriend and my friends have been around this past few days to help me go through this ordeal. It sucks but it is what it is. Liars are liars. Betrayers are betrayers. The boyfriend is actually tired of listening to me blabbering about the same shiate again and again. He told me to be patience and wait for things to happen. I can't. I tried okay!! I'm just not the sort who will sit back and relax and wait for things to happen. I'm the sort who make things happen, the kiasu the super-kanchong, the one who doesn't know how to relax and shut up. YES the drama queen to be exact. but who cares. I take charge of my own life and destiny. I'm the director for each and every one of the drama that Ive created. hah

Anyhoos, i felt so bad for slamming the phone down on the boyfriend yesterday. okok listen to this.... the funny thing is i was so frustrated that I fell asleep soon after slamming the phone. hahaha What more can I say.. a pig is forever a pig. sleeping is like breathing oxygen to me hahaha

potpat: you buat ape lepas hempas telefon
me : I tido la penat tau marah-marah
potpat: Tau pun, i suruh you relax you degil, masih nak marah marah bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla